Michelle Williams wanted another baby

Just days after winning her first Golden Globe for portraying blond bombshell Marilyn Monroe in "My Week With Marilyn," the normally buttoned-up Michelle Williams is turning up her bombshell dial to a big "10" in the new issue of GQ. Gracing the pages in a platinum blond bob and leaving little to the imagination in lingerie, Williams opens up about her early days in Hollywood, her parents and her critically acclaimed work in "Marilyn." And eventually, she talks about her late boyfriend Heath Ledger.




"Our initial meeting, the circumstances of how we first met, were cosmic or something," she said when asked what attracted them to one another while they were shooting "Brokeback Mountain." After an on-again, off-again relationship and one child together, his 2008 death became headline news, and reporters and paparazzi soon intruded on her life.


"It was making me crazy. I felt like I was going crazy. It was too much — trying to deal with what had happened and trying to deal with what was at our doorstep. I just felt trapped," she said, later referencing their daughter, Matilda. "And it's not just me — there's somebody else who I'm trying to protect, and I can't. I can't make it stop, I can't make it go away. Trying to find ways to explain it or shield her from it. It's like you're trying to go about your life, and make dinner...but the roof is off of your house, and the walls are falling down.


Although Michelle has found life tough since Heath passed away from an accidental drugs overdose, she thinks it is harder for her daughter because the youngster will have few memories of her father that she doesn’t share with anyone else.


“You know, as hard as certain things have been for me, it’s been harder thinking about how things will be for her. I have a lot of things that she doesn’t, and some of what I have I can give to her the memories that I have, the objects that I have, the physical reminders that I have, the stories. But she won’t really have any that are solely...” she said.


Michelle and Heath met on the set of Brokeback Mountain in 2004 with the actress giving birth to their daughter in 2005 and the 31-year-old actress believes their relationship developed so quickly because they subconsciously knew they didn’t have much time together.


“Our initial meeting, the circumstances of how we first met, were cosmic or something. Yeah, a lot of things happened at once. It’s a bit like: We had a lot of things to do, because we didn’t have a lot of time, or something,” she added.